Opportunities to Show Your Inner Strength

10.17.11

I've started to notice something. Whenever I'm in a situation I can't control, where it takes every part of me not to get pissed off and do something crazy, that's when I can feel my own inner strength. It's the times when we're pushed to the edge that we really have a chance to show what we're made of.

Lately I've found myself looking forward to those times. I've failed to leap over walls in my way in the past and I want to prove to myself I won't let them stop me again. This all may sound rather dramatic, but don't we all have weaknesses; things that always get us down or situations that really piss us off?

It may sound odd, but I have difficulty going to church on Sundays. I've been a member all my life, I love the lessons and talks in Sacrament meeting as well as renewing my covenants once a week. I have a firm testimony that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true, but that doesn't make going to church any easier.

It's a battle to stay for three hours every week because I don't know anyone. It's understandable when you're new in a ward, but I haven't known anyone in a ward I've attended for at least 7 years now. Don't get me wrong, small talk starts here and there, but for some reason I haven't made any new friends at church since I attended the ward I grew up in as a kid.

I'm aware it could easily be my fault. I don't make a huge effort most the time, and I don't attend many activities since Irish dance takes up most of my free time. I've learned not to place the blame anywhere since you can't expect people to drop everything to get to know you. The best thing I can do when I go to church is just focus on the lessons, but it's always a struggle. Every Sunday I leave church thoroughly exhausted, it's hard to be considered 'new in the ward' for years and years. It can make you feel more invisible every time you hear someone say it.

Going to church is my biggest struggle, so every Sunday, sitting by myself in church, I dig deep and find my inner strength. I decide to keep a smile on my face for three hours and focus on feeling the spirit, rather than get angry at the people around me. "I'm a warrior," I'll tell myself. "I can take anything." When I find that inner strength, suddenly a situation that really pisses me off, doesn't bother me too much.

When you get through those times without freaking out or taking it out on someone else, you start to feel invincible. "If I can handle that, I can handle anything." The harder the challenge, the more powerful you feel, knowing you have strength inside to face the worst parts of your life.

Often when I'm searching for my inner strength I'll remember one of the most famous verses from The Book of Mormon:

"And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them." ~ 1 Nephi 3:7

The Lord will never give you a challenge you can't overcome. So in other words, if the Lord asks you to face something that seems unbearable, that just shows how powerful you really are. If He says you can do it, you can. It's a simple as that.

Feeling your inner strength can cheer you up instantly as well as give you a lot of confidence you didn't have before. I'm very thankful for everything I've gone through in my life because without facing what I have, I wouldn't know just how incredibly strong I can be.

Article written by Shelly Allen.
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